29: A Happier Year!
Looking back at the last five years, the two things
that have been consistent is how perfectly my age
catches up with my waist size and how change has been
the only constant!
Last year, I quit my job to pursue an entrepreneurial dream, worked on some interesting educational projects, went on a few vacations, survived some freak accidents, missed my husband sorely, but things haven't been entirely unpredictable... Everything I did, including choosing a risky career path, were conscious decisions! There have been times when I have forgotten that. I have been so caught up in this raw change and with questioning my dubious choices that I haven't relished the good times that have been staring at me. I have spent many days just thinking about how inadequate I am, and how alone I am in this inadequacy. There is always this wonder and amazement and how well everyone else seems to be doing, and how much more commendable their life choices are.
I have been telling myself that by 30 I want to be where I can look back at my life with some sense of self-worth, so that I can look forward to a more contented future. But, that would make 29 the cheerless gateway to an equally unknown decade. So perhaps, this year will be better spent regaining some spunk and clarity, and doing the right things with confidence?
Now I'm off on my awesome dinner date with my most favorite person in the whole entire universe!
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I always do a gifts list cos I get the coolest gifts ever. :)
This year, I got:
The Taste of Tea DVD,
Snap Circuits,
6-in-1 solar robot kit (wrapped in this really cool paper with a little dog stuck on top of it),
An ipad,
A wireless keyboard,
Tickets to The Blue Mug play,
Tickets to Vijay Iyer's Tirtha concert (with R.Prasanna and Nitin Mitta),
A few inches in my new TV :)
A pretty salwar with matching necklace and earrings,
Two beautitful vases (to paint on)
Some pretty handmade earrings,
An amazing pencil sketch of me,
Tons and tons of birthday wishes - some very endearing emails, birthday songs, some old photographs,
Lunches, dinners,
Some IOUs
Last year, I quit my job to pursue an entrepreneurial dream, worked on some interesting educational projects, went on a few vacations, survived some freak accidents, missed my husband sorely, but things haven't been entirely unpredictable... Everything I did, including choosing a risky career path, were conscious decisions! There have been times when I have forgotten that. I have been so caught up in this raw change and with questioning my dubious choices that I haven't relished the good times that have been staring at me. I have spent many days just thinking about how inadequate I am, and how alone I am in this inadequacy. There is always this wonder and amazement and how well everyone else seems to be doing, and how much more commendable their life choices are.
I have been telling myself that by 30 I want to be where I can look back at my life with some sense of self-worth, so that I can look forward to a more contented future. But, that would make 29 the cheerless gateway to an equally unknown decade. So perhaps, this year will be better spent regaining some spunk and clarity, and doing the right things with confidence?
Now I'm off on my awesome dinner date with my most favorite person in the whole entire universe!
---
I always do a gifts list cos I get the coolest gifts ever. :)
This year, I got:
The Taste of Tea DVD,
Snap Circuits,
6-in-1 solar robot kit (wrapped in this really cool paper with a little dog stuck on top of it),
An ipad,
A wireless keyboard,
Tickets to The Blue Mug play,
Tickets to Vijay Iyer's Tirtha concert (with R.Prasanna and Nitin Mitta),
A few inches in my new TV :)
A pretty salwar with matching necklace and earrings,
Two beautitful vases (to paint on)
Some pretty handmade earrings,
An amazing pencil sketch of me,
Tons and tons of birthday wishes - some very endearing emails, birthday songs, some old photographs,
Lunches, dinners,
Some IOUs
